Why do i act the way i do? Thats the question i have been asking myself for many years. I always do something that causes me to ask myself why did i do that. I think im having problems with my ideal and real self and to be honest i need my fellows and allies help with this. As you might know i missed the camping trip because i was arrested with a felony charge. To make a long story short i was out with my friends and acted in a immature way and was arrested. Im so sick of the feeling i get i do something dumb knowing that i will get in trouble and dont realize how bad it is until i get in trouble and then i start feeling bad and my insides clam up. I got to tell you guys its not fun having that stress on your back, it really hurts. Being up all night, having a hard time breathing, just thinking about whats going to happen to you and thats why i decided enough is enough. I have to start making a change in myself and the people around me because obviously im easily influenced. I have decided to open up about this problem im having to you guys because im so sick and tired of getting in trouble with the law and i honestly want to change who i hang out with and the lifestyle i live. I ask all my fellows and allies to please help me out because im almost out of options and i want to better myself to be able to help better the world.